Going for the Good

I will be away for 16 days from now. I would like to spend my time in re-organising my self. I would not carry any burdensome baggage from the past. And I would move on. I have a long way to go. As I have been fighting with my fate and this fight does not seem to be ending anytime soon. I believe in myself and know for certain that my world is far better than what it seems at times. I have got the ability to think positive and understand things better. I feel fortunate that I hardly make wrong decisions. I need to build a new confidence in me and certainly have to start taking life more seriously. I am a bit carefree girl. I hardly take things seriously and do something meaningful. But if I do not cure my ways then I will lag behind. I have to match the pace of my efforts with the time. In the next few days, I just want to forget everything but the real goal of my life. I do not want to get married and settle down just for the sake of it. I want to live a meaningful life. And of course, I want more freedom. Freedom lets a person be her self. I am yearning for a “safe freedom”. I have many things to do. And I want to judge how far I would reach. I have to go now. I will be back. Hopefully, with loads of happiness and enthusiasm next time, as that’s what I am known for.

Control yourself

Sometimes even, I do not understand my mood swings. At this moment, I am full of excitement, joy and happiness and the next, I am sad, melancholic, and downhearted. I find this crazy. I find this out of my head. I just can not understand why I am so moved by my emotions. I am not that emotional type or at least I try not to be one (ehh God). Well my friends say, if I am in a good mood then I make the world more beautiful for everybody around. And if I am in a bad mood then, hell, I make the life hell for everybody around. But I do not like this. I want to keep control over my emotions. What would be the best way? Yoga? Meditation? Or some Dance / Music classes? May be I can just talk with my friends and feel better. But how can I find one idle friend to hear all my prattle. No no. I can’t do that with my friends. I should give them comfort and care rather than getting on their nerves ;). Then what else, may be I can just write down my thoughts here and feel better? Well, don’t know what would work best for my weird mood swings. But I got to keep control over my emotional, sensitive self. Let’s see to what extent I’ll get success.

Never Be an Emotional Fool

I have been an emotional fool from the very beginning of my life. My kind of people are difficult to deal with sometimes. And they even do not know which way to go as they are so much engaged with their own thoughts that they can not see through reality. It becomes difficult to understand the very intrigue nature of human beings. And my kind of people make it even worse. But the one thing, which I have decided today, is that I will never become an emotional fool. Meaning thereby I will always put my logical and intellectual side first and lead my life accordingly. It is not bad to be emotional sometimes. But it is always better to keep a check over the emotions, so that we can see through reality as clear as day. And that way we can always be safe from being an emotional fool. I had to make a choice and I have made it. Never Be an Emotional Fool.