la la la la la ..I wanna fly high high high .. lol

Humm I have written so much serious stuff there in the blog. Lemme now write something that just hits my head. Well I wanted to write some very serious stuff lol but suddenly changed my mind. Whenever I feel like talking to somebody, and I don’t get anybody by my side, then I talk to my own self. As a matter of fact, most of the time I keep talking to my own self. I do want to make friends, but may be not very good at that Art. Did you know making friends is also an Art.. hum?

Oh about the title, yeah I was singing something..something that did not go beyond "la la la la la" hmm may be I just composed a tune, and yet to find lyrics for the tune, in the mean time my "la la la la la" will do good for me. .. ;) ..

And what about the thing of flying? ohh that..sometimes I feel as if I am a butterfly lol..so whenever I feel like a butterfly then I start singing "I wanna fly high high high" ..It could have been sung "I wanna fly..... (and as if suddenly I bumped into an old friend) ..Hi Hi Hi"..hmm not very funny though.. :P..

Okie now last thing if I really should post this on the blog? I mean I didn’t apply my mind on this blog, but whatever hit my mind I wrote. I wanted to write. I just wanted to say my mind. It was as simple as that. So here you are!

Let me try again

I have been trying to do multiple tasks simultaneously for quite some time now, but may be I am not a genius to handle all the things like that. My mind gets engrossed in one thing that I do and then I can’t think of anything else. If I work on one project, then it occupies my full attention and I can’t think of working on another project simultaneously. I feel it is good that I can concentrate on one thing at a time. May be that’s why I can understand things quickly. But if I try to do several activities at one go then I just end up messing up all. In order to do things in a systematic way, leaving no room for mistakes and thereby failures, I must have to concentrate on one project at a time. I keep revising my time management, as it’s really important for me. I do value time a lot now and do not want to waste a single moment. So I keep working on my time management depending upon the circumstances and my own mental ability to handle them. After thinking really hard, I have come to a conclusion. I must have to forget everything and concentrate on the projects in my hands. These projects include my Job, MBA & English Literature. So let me just try again to follow the systematic route, as I keep distracting myself a lot. But I also keep trying to make the best use of every moment of my life and every single moment is precious to me. I ‘Hope’ & ‘Wish’ I will succeed.

Recognize Real World Complexities

It will be good if I start live in reality and break my dream world. It is very important for us to understand the difference between Reality and Dreams, otherwise we end up becoming a loser at the end of the day. The definition of Reality and Dream is a different aspect and I do not want to touch that aspect at this time. I just want to understand that I must realize where I live, what I do is in the real world. At times I am just so lost in my dreams that I forget the real complexities of the real world facing me head on. Until I recognize those complexities, I can not overcome them. Today, somehow, as human mind keeps working all the time, even when we sleep, it keeps roaming to unknown dimensions, I realized that I can not afford to be indifferent towards the real problems. I need to understand and recognize them and then only I’ll be able to prepare myself to face them and ultimately overcome them.

Can we live like Robots? No.

Okay if for the time being I forget the problems and as I have decided not let my self disturb because of anything, can I really get away with the human emotions? I do not think so, we can be very good organizers of our own lifestyle. We can put extreme pressure on ourselves to improve for the betterment of all, but we can not really get away with the very basic limitations of human beings. Human is emotional character. We can put up a rigid face just to hide our real feelings but we can not live a robotic life. We are humans and we are emotional and can not get away with the human limitations. I was trying to lead a robotic life for some time, but have realized no, it can’t be possible. I can not live a robotic life. Being a human being, I have got be affected by my surroundings and such things do affect me. Well that’s how life goes on, but may be I’ll never stop experimenting all the stuff, that will, I hope, make me a better human being.

Smoky Ashes

I have always been a person who is more into present rather than past, and do not let myself indulge in my past memories. But may be our unconscious mind keeps a record of all the events of past and even if we do not want to disturb our present, these secretly kept memories in our unconscious mind keep creeping into our present. It’s been happening with me for quite some time now. Certain events or words or may be some unspoken lines, though I have moved on and embraced the life at its best now, keep penetrating through my head unintentionally. Today I felt really weird, why the hell these unspoken feelings, thoughts, and memories of my past still haunt me and erupt into my head like volcano. My conscious mind is not able to understand this and at times, becomes helpless in front of my unconscious mind. For me such intrigue memories of past are like smoky ashes. And I’ll never be able to know when these smoky murky reflections will disappear into unknown horizons and I’ll see the clear sky without any cloudy stumbling block of my past. I hope these smoky ashes will fade away one day. I can just hope so.

Drops of Dreamy Dew

I opened my eyes,
Saw myriads of shining sallow pearls,
Surrounding me all around,
Mystified, I thought in empty,
Were those shining drops of morning dew?
Or they were illuminating tiny drops of dreams,
Dreams of the rising hopes?
Or of the fading memories,
Unable to understand,
I walked on to touch a pearl,
And the touch was so delicate and momentary,
Before I could realize,
It vanished like a drop of my dreamy dew.

It’s my first attempt in poem writing.

I Have To Fight With The Fate And Win.

Was just thinking about the various problems one has to face in day to day life. But how can one get cowed down by such petty hindrances. If I can not handle such petty problems then I am good for nothing. And ha, I wanted to fight with my fate! How can a girl with so much confusion in her head, with such a low confidence in herself and with so many fears in her heart, can dream of fighting with her tough luck. But I have to fight with my fate. Fate. Something, I have never had faith in. I have always believed in Dreams. I believe in Desires. I believe in moving ahead, and suddenly this strange burning desire to fight with the Fate has risen in my heart. Can we really fight with something, that’s never been ‘An Existing Identity’ for us. But no matter whatever it is, I have to overcome it. May be we refer to our ‘disappointments and unpleasant outcomes’ as Fate sometimes, or we change our opinion of Fate according to the circumstances we are in. Okay whatever it is, I know what I have to do and that’s all what matters. I have to FIGHT with the FATE. And I have to WIN.