Want to learn something new everyday :)

Today, it seems life has become monotonic. Same routine with no change or new activities. So, I took a long breath and thought what I can do to make my life a better and more enjoyable experience. I have always been very fascinated by showbiz. If I can do something in that, but what? Maybe I can begin with joining some dancing/music classes. Acting is not my cup of tea, but I love music and dance. I have to continue with the routine job also to afford the other things in life. We can still follow our heart and chase our dreams. At least we should give it a try and never miss any opportunity to follow your dreams. But if I give a thought of my daily routine, it is pretty obvious that I am missing out on many things. Need to concentrate more on the goals, but the goals seem hazy from here. Have not been able to decide on many things. And time is just flying away.

Long time !!

So finally, have moved on and started learning quite a bit of modern corporate life !.. oh this is certainly not what I wanted ..:(... hate 'em ..well.. still a long way to go :). So what all I am doing nowadays..most of the time i keep myself busy, listen some good music and audio books (my newly found hobby), keep planning for future and sometimes feel in a very peculiar manner, just like the way i am feeling now !!

So what else, nothing special so far, just getting on with the new job and new people, still not satisfied..oh for that matter, i might never get satisfied, but keep longing for the better, as always :)..

Way to go... and i am just crawling on.. ah.. what to do..hmm need to move fast.. and fast and fast............and forget everything else :)

Cheers.. would keep writing more.. :)

Change for Good

How human disposition goes through radical changes sometimes. Perhaps one of the most intricate subjects is Human psychology. No one rule will apply in common. Okay today I have resolved to challenge my faculties to the maximum. I, being an easy going girl, tend to avoid challenging ways. I always choose the easiest, fastest, safest way possible. Such a disposition might get credit for its super safely approach, but it blocks many less trodden ventures which could turn into revolutionary phenomenon. But to take a first step towards the ventures which are fraught with numerous unimagined risks, needs a lot of guts with one focused approach. There is nothing in this world that is unattainable. You only have to accumulate your enormous human capacities and determination, and you can achieve anything you dream of. As the time goes by, we tend to change. Change is the only constant thing in cosmos. Change is good. Change is inevitable. Change is life :)

Reality or what?

It seems recent happenings have really influenced me deeply. Today, being in a rather composed self, have been able to come to this blog again after a long hiatus. It feels good to be back home. Yeah, this blog seems like a second home. Here I can pour out my heart freely. Because words keep flowing out and, my thoughts become clearer to me. A good way to reflect on one’s own recent past. Today though, a bit melancholy feeling is hovering somewhere back in my head, still I feel better to ponder over subtle issues which have been bothering me and for what I have not been able to find satisfying resolutions. A path, which is desired to be taken, goes out of sight suddenly and at that moment, I start feeling lost. Time passes away, a momentary jolt is felt and then, that desired path starts coming out of vague horizons again. Sometimes that feels like a mirage and the next moment, like an inescapable reality. Sometimes it becomes extremely difficult to perceive the difference between the two phenomenon. And I start feeling lost again. Here, I recollect a short story told by one of my friends, about a little butterfly, who when wakes up from her dreams, finds it difficult to perceive whether she was dreaming earlier or dreaming it now after waking up. Whether the reality is what we see or what we don’t see. Whether the reality is what we see during life or it is something we encounter after death. Oh it seems I have diverted the directions of my thoughts. Let me get back in the worldly sense again. Okay I have to clear two subjects on the coming Saturday, and then have to pass another important exam on 24th April, oh how can I forget to submit the project report to my college before the deadline, we are also planning to go on a shopping spree on Sunday, and did I forget to mention that I have to make a phone call to my best friend today…..my ‘things to do’ list seems endless. Is that what we refer to as ‘reality’ or it is something beyond our worldly senses? Well, I had better get back to work again before I start getting reminder calls. In the meantime, you all have a good time!

Clear Sky

Where is that clear sky,
I used to watch as a small fry
Where have gone, those days
When I used to chase, sunny rays
My heart is crying out
Searching for a clear clout
By the blurring tip of a muzzle
Ain’t able to solve this puzzle
Where is my burning desire
Why I am not, on the fire
What made me so sullen suddenly
Things started scaring me stubbornly
Haunting me up and down
Daunting me, making me moan
Where have I lost my moments of joy
Sweetest dreams and fantasy’s toy
Losing my peace and solace smile
In pursuing my dreams all the while
Somewhere, lost my right tunes
In chasing those blasé boons
I wish to dream one more time
Without caring for any more dime
If only I get to that mystic reply
How to reach that clear sky
I used to watch as a small fry

Bye Bye 2009

It’s time to say ‘Good bye’ to the Year 2009. Uhhh one whole year has passed again. Oh my goodness, it seems it passed in a split second. Well, okay let me recall how it had been for me. The beginning of this year was silky and cool. The mid of the year was full of excitements. I’ll cherish all the cheery memories of this wonderful year. The bad experiences were also encountered, but I will remember the good lessons I have learnt from them and all the bad memories will be vanished from my uber cool mind. The end was neither too good nor too bad, I would say it was rather dull, but that’s okay with me as I assume, all the time you can not be on Fire! Overall not a bad Year! Actually, my mind is so jam-packed right now that I am unable to recall all the things happened in this year. It’s always good to have your mind half empty so that you can absorb more knowledge. But uff, I am really not able to recall things properly. Okay let the past be a past and move on. Let us welcome ‘The Year 2010’. Wow I am already so excited about this beautiful new year. This is a year, which is going to be a turning point in my life. This is a kind of “do or die” year for me. As my studies will be finished, this year and then several new and exciting things are lined up to unfold. My family and I will again be on the two opposite directions! But let’s see who will win this cute battle this time. I love to look at life at its best. Life is beautiful. Love it, Enjoy it, Embrace it but never let it be wasted. Have an ever-wonderful year ahead!

Have a GOOD TIME

Oh how much I want to forget this world, and want to dedicate myself to the goals I have set before me. How much I want to remind myself that I have to look at the “Bull’s eye” only and forget everything else. Still there are so many residues in my head, inspite of trying real hard, I have not been able to clear them up. Everyday, I plan and re-plan, but can not follow it quite well. Have already missed two deadlines of some trivial assignments, some short-term goals, but it has started bothering me now. It seems time is running faster than I, and even though I have been trying my level best to catch up it’s pace, I find myself failing miserably. Still hope is there! Can see my deadlines vividly, but find it very difficult to accomplish them. Ah, there is something still clinging in my head, and I have not been strong enough to get rid of it. Even if my conscious mind swears to having understood the clear reality, my unconscious mind has not been able to break itself free from those disturbing shadows of unwanted truths. I am unable to find out an answer, how to remove those complicated residues from my unconscious mind. Sometimes, I feel, may be ‘yoga’ is the answer. As it relaxes our mind, body & soul and helps us in forgetting the complexities of life, but somehow I am not very sure of this Art too. The best thing would be to let this ‘TIME’ pass tranquilly and then gradually my unconscious mind will forget all the nagging doubts. Ah, but there lies the hitch - the ‘TIME’, TIME is running very fast and I have to match its pace! Alright, whatever I say, but the correct answer, still remains - the “TIME”. Time will make me a better person and there is nothing in this world, which can not be healed by Time. So, I guess I have found my answer. Let me have a GOOD TIME now!