Going to get married

how time flies, soon i will be a married woman ! yes, two months to go and i am all set to marry with a guy of my choice :). I have been away from my blog, as i had these major changes expected in life. life has been such, we can never predict what our future holds for us. I am a bit apprehensive, a bit doubtful about my would be life, but still determined to enter into that unknown world for me. People know, there is nothing much to be worried about, but for a single girl, this seems a lot of change. i wish i will be happily married girl everafter....

Need to overcome my fears !

Hi, there are plenty of fears keep haunting me night and day. And i try so hard to overcome them unsuccessfully. If only i could find a way out to overcome such horrible fears lying deep down in my heart. but as they say, there is nothing we can't accomplish if we are determined. I am gonna work even harder from this point of my life and will surely overcome all of my fears one day. I always believe in never give up and i will never give up. I have a goal in life. I am not living aimless. So I must have to overcome my fears to reach out to my goals, my dreams. It's always good to have an aim in life and we must follow our heart to achieve our aim in life. The obstacles will be many and we must have to overcome all of them to be a winner in life !!

Want to learn something new everyday :)

Today, it seems life has become monotonic. Same routine with no change or new activities. So, I took a long breath and thought what I can do to make my life a better and more enjoyable experience. I have always been very fascinated by showbiz. If I can do something in that, but what? Maybe I can begin with joining some dancing/music classes. Acting is not my cup of tea, but I love music and dance. I have to continue with the routine job also to afford the other things in life. We can still follow our heart and chase our dreams. At least we should give it a try and never miss any opportunity to follow your dreams. But if I give a thought of my daily routine, it is pretty obvious that I am missing out on many things. Need to concentrate more on the goals, but the goals seem hazy from here. Have not been able to decide on many things. And time is just flying away.

Long time !!

So finally, have moved on and started learning quite a bit of modern corporate life !.. oh this is certainly not what I wanted ..:(... hate 'em ..well.. still a long way to go :). So what all I am doing nowadays..most of the time i keep myself busy, listen some good music and audio books (my newly found hobby), keep planning for future and sometimes feel in a very peculiar manner, just like the way i am feeling now !!

So what else, nothing special so far, just getting on with the new job and new people, still not satisfied..oh for that matter, i might never get satisfied, but keep longing for the better, as always :)..

Way to go... and i am just crawling on.. ah.. what to do..hmm need to move fast.. and fast and fast............and forget everything else :)

Cheers.. would keep writing more.. :)

Change for Good

How human disposition goes through radical changes sometimes. Perhaps one of the most intricate subjects is Human psychology. No one rule will apply in common. Okay today I have resolved to challenge my faculties to the maximum. I, being an easy going girl, tend to avoid challenging ways. I always choose the easiest, fastest, safest way possible. Such a disposition might get credit for its super safely approach, but it blocks many less trodden ventures which could turn into revolutionary phenomenon. But to take a first step towards the ventures which are fraught with numerous unimagined risks, needs a lot of guts with one focused approach. There is nothing in this world that is unattainable. You only have to accumulate your enormous human capacities and determination, and you can achieve anything you dream of. As the time goes by, we tend to change. Change is the only constant thing in cosmos. Change is good. Change is inevitable. Change is life :)

Reality or what?

It seems recent happenings have really influenced me deeply. Today, being in a rather composed self, have been able to come to this blog again after a long hiatus. It feels good to be back home. Yeah, this blog seems like a second home. Here I can pour out my heart freely. Because words keep flowing out and, my thoughts become clearer to me. A good way to reflect on one’s own recent past. Today though, a bit melancholy feeling is hovering somewhere back in my head, still I feel better to ponder over subtle issues which have been bothering me and for what I have not been able to find satisfying resolutions. A path, which is desired to be taken, goes out of sight suddenly and at that moment, I start feeling lost. Time passes away, a momentary jolt is felt and then, that desired path starts coming out of vague horizons again. Sometimes that feels like a mirage and the next moment, like an inescapable reality. Sometimes it becomes extremely difficult to perceive the difference between the two phenomenon. And I start feeling lost again. Here, I recollect a short story told by one of my friends, about a little butterfly, who when wakes up from her dreams, finds it difficult to perceive whether she was dreaming earlier or dreaming it now after waking up. Whether the reality is what we see or what we don’t see. Whether the reality is what we see during life or it is something we encounter after death. Oh it seems I have diverted the directions of my thoughts. Let me get back in the worldly sense again. Okay I have to clear two subjects on the coming Saturday, and then have to pass another important exam on 24th April, oh how can I forget to submit the project report to my college before the deadline, we are also planning to go on a shopping spree on Sunday, and did I forget to mention that I have to make a phone call to my best friend today…..my ‘things to do’ list seems endless. Is that what we refer to as ‘reality’ or it is something beyond our worldly senses? Well, I had better get back to work again before I start getting reminder calls. In the meantime, you all have a good time!

Clear Sky

Where is that clear sky,
I used to watch as a small fry
Where have gone, those days
When I used to chase, sunny rays
My heart is crying out
Searching for a clear clout
By the blurring tip of a muzzle
Ain’t able to solve this puzzle
Where is my burning desire
Why I am not, on the fire
What made me so sullen suddenly
Things started scaring me stubbornly
Haunting me up and down
Daunting me, making me moan
Where have I lost my moments of joy
Sweetest dreams and fantasy’s toy
Losing my peace and solace smile
In pursuing my dreams all the while
Somewhere, lost my right tunes
In chasing those blasé boons
I wish to dream one more time
Without caring for any more dime
If only I get to that mystic reply
How to reach that clear sky
I used to watch as a small fry